fax your resume straight to the trash.

the past few days I have been pondering.  Thoughts of God and how he gives gifts.  when I worked in Windsor, my boss was my preacher's wife, and her dad was a pastor too, Hope would always say her daddy would tell her to pray Matthew 21:22..."If you believe, you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer"  I don't know how many times I think of those words and when I just doubt that change will come, or that God will move mountains, I begin to pray this verse and peace comes and we wait for His timing.

The thought hit me, we ask for things we think we deserve, you know they are rightfully ours, when they are not- they are gifts from God.  Have you ever applied for a job, after your interview you just knew you had it.  I handed my resume to a principal one time and he told me I was "homegrown" and didn't get the job.  WHAT? Didn't get the job I was homegrown- you couldn't find a resume more diversified and exciting as mine....look I deserve this job-I have the degree, the license, the background-- give it to me.   I don't know about you guys, but sometimes I want to show God my religion resume and say now give me want I want.  Look God, I have blessed my meals, gone to church, I have went to the bible study, I have volunteered to help the poor and needy, don't you see its right here under "education" and "volunteer experience" what more can I do?  But just as I get whiny, God says he can care less about my resume, he wants me to take a look at his....because he is the one who will do the work, He is the One. 

God has moved so much over the past few years.  Just when I begin to doubt I take a look over my journals and see where he has moved.  I see the prayers that I have believed and he has been faithful to answer, I see my other prayers and burdens answered in heaven that are not yet seen here on earth and give praise that He will move in them too! 
oh my i really need to get in the bed.  Good night!

life.

life is a funny thing.  we wish it away, then look back to wonder where the days went.  never content in where we are, who we are, but always wishing we can be who we aren't because of who we were yesterday.  I was clearning my memory cards of pictures I had taken....the past year well documented.  days and moments of time wishing we would be where we are today, yet today is here and we are wanting tomorrow- but all we have is today. Think of all the life we could live if we just lived it for today, not dragging yesterday into it, and not pushing it into tomorrow.  Imagine the love we could share if we actually took the time to look into their eyes, imagine the lives we could impact if we actually did something for others and not just talk about it. 

this is one aspect of my life I have been convicted in, the internet has been one major hindrance for me.  Yes it is a great tool, but too much of my time is spent checking email-keeping up with a facebook account- blogging when I get an opportunity.  It robs me of time I could just spend loving my husband who is in front of me, reading my bible instead of a newsfeed, doing a craft instead of reading about them.  I have no trouble fasting food-  I can go without eating, but take my internet away and I start to fidget.  So with that being said, I am withdrawing myself from the world wide web except for time of work and time at school.  We are cancelling our home internet :) 

our life is but a vapor.
later folks!