Wednesday, June 22, 2011

Well I have some reflections about the word Do...I will admit that sometimes I struggle with this word.  My earthly flesh says, I have a 4 year degree I should be doing something more with my life than changing baby diapers for almost minimal wage.  I have always loved babies and still do, but I guess when I graduated high school I never aspired to go to college and get a job at a daycare.  What I did aspire to do was to be where God would have me be doing what He would have me do, i just never thought it would be that.  But twice in my life I have prayed for a job to be sent to me, and bada bing bada boom...daycare infant room both times.  As much as my flesh beats me up over it at times, my spirit is at peace.  God provided every job I have had- the bank, the biotechnology lab, substitute teaching, daycare, church, and everytime I learn something more of Him.  I would say that daycare has been the most humbling, afterall just the pay alone will humble you, infact I made more money per hour at 2 different jobs with a high school diploma than I do today with a degree. 

but i lack no good thing. 

There are 2 verses that have kept me over the past 2 1/2 years:

Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for men, since you know that you will recieive an inheritance form the Lord as a reward.  It is the Lord Christ you are serving.  Colossians 3:23-24.

Do everything in love. 1 Corinthians 16:14

So over the past 2 1/2 years I have rocked, prayed for,  fed, burped, changed diapers and clothes, played with, tickled, laughed with and on somedays could have really cried with just over 30 babies and toddlers and this only includes daycare- not children's minstry at foster street.  there have been a lot of days I have to keep reminding myself that I am serving Christ not man, especially on days they keep piling things on my "to do list" and "make sure you"....list.  So where and what does the future hold, I cannot say, but I can say that God is Good and one day when I have babies of my own- I will know what products are good to use haha.   
   Brandon shared this song with me this evening...click on the link and take a listen to it.  It helped to remind me of this verse :)

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Thursday, June 16, 2011

if i were confident enough.


I have always thought if I were confident..or brave...or got a wild hair...i really don't know how to word this...other than If I could I  would be a hippie.  full fledge...okay i would shave my legs and armpits...wear my deoderant...and brush my teeth...so possile be a half fledge  hippie.  o and I wouldn't do drugs.  The things I would want is the dreads and the nose ring...and maybe a small tatoo behind my ear on my neck..the music...and the van.  I would be a beach surfer hippie- yes I would know how to surf. I think I would make little necklaces and other random artwork and sell it at a little stand on the beach.. I could open a little shop for families to get their family portraits made on the beach and in an hour come by to pick up the narly CD and I can just hear the parents tell their kids oneday they better not turn out looking like me.... this would be in the summer...in the winter I would drive my van to the mountains and spend my time teaching newbies how to ski- yes I would know to snow ski and snow board like no mans business...my dreads would keep my head warm wrapped tightly in my handmade knit tobaggin with socks mismatched to match.  I would be quiet and think alot and have a cause to protect...maybe its because I am anti-consumerism but surviving in a commerical market, or maybe its just to say peace out man. 

anywho...I have always wondered if I am the only one who has these thought through my head.  Brandon said he would like to see inside my head to see my thoughts.  but I love myself- me.  and even if I tried I would never be a hippie even if I tried my hardest to pull the look off. the real lynn- could possibly do the dreads- but I hear they stink so I would probably gag if they did, the nose ring and tatoo just sound too painful, and I don't like physical pain, music is a definite...the van is a possiblity- I saw one at a yard sale not so long ago.  but what bank wants to do a carloan on a 30 year old vehicle?  Surf/Ski- I am afraid of the waves and possible rip currents, and I don't veer to far from the bunny slope.  I fell down going upwards on teh conveyer belt..cmon. I would buy all the supplies to make my "artwork" to sell and then get bored with the first 3 and never sell them I would probably give them away as gifts.  but hey I can stand for a cause and its the only cause I know- that God made me, He loves me, and Jesus loved me so much he died for me, he rose again and now I can live a life better than one I could ever dream of.  so I love me too.  and it makes me want to love you.  So blogspot readers in case you didn't know.  I love you.

Wednesday, June 1, 2011

what to blog....what to blog


well here lately our life has been in the fast lane.  The past year has went by extremely fast.  so  here it is our 3rd wedding anniversary, and thus a vacation.  Each year we have taken this week off to chill out and enjoy each others company without rushing here or there.  Today was awesome- with a sewing gift from my B and flowers, we headed to raleigh in the jeep to my favorite store- Peace Camera.  then we took grady to the pond while I ate herseys chocolate icecream and played with my new lens. the rest of the week will be time at the lake and time spent working on the house.  Days of rest with each other are the best!  now for popcorn and tv!  I have been looking at my wedding album here lately because of a few weddings I have been asked to photograph.  I remember how much fun it was to plan and to experience.  I was not a bridezilla and as long as I left that beach lynn king baker I was okay if it poured rain, the cake melted, and the seagulls pooped on my head.