if i were confident enough.

I have always thought if I were confident..or brave...or got a wild hair...i really don't know how to word this...other than If I could I  would be a hippie.  full fledge...okay i would shave my legs and armpits...wear my deoderant...and brush my teeth...so possile be a half fledge  hippie.  o and I wouldn't do drugs.  The things I would want is the dreads and the nose ring...and maybe a small tatoo behind my ear on my neck..the music...and the van.  I would be a beach surfer hippie- yes I would know how to surf. I think I would make little necklaces and other random artwork and sell it at a little stand on the beach.. I could open a little shop for families to get their family portraits made on the beach and in an hour come by to pick up the narly CD and I can just hear the parents tell their kids oneday they better not turn out looking like me.... this would be in the summer...in the winter I would drive my van to the mountains and spend my time teaching newbies how to ski- yes I would know to snow ski and snow board like no mans business...my dreads would keep my head warm wrapped tightly in my handmade knit tobaggin with socks mismatched to match.  I would be quiet and think alot and have a cause to protect...maybe its because I am anti-consumerism but surviving in a commerical market, or maybe its just to say peace out man. 

anywho...I have always wondered if I am the only one who has these thought through my head.  Brandon said he would like to see inside my head to see my thoughts.  but I love myself- me.  and even if I tried I would never be a hippie even if I tried my hardest to pull the look off. the real lynn- could possibly do the dreads- but I hear they stink so I would probably gag if they did, the nose ring and tatoo just sound too painful, and I don't like physical pain, music is a definite...the van is a possiblity- I saw one at a yard sale not so long ago.  but what bank wants to do a carloan on a 30 year old vehicle?  Surf/Ski- I am afraid of the waves and possible rip currents, and I don't veer to far from the bunny slope.  I fell down going upwards on teh conveyer belt..cmon. I would buy all the supplies to make my "artwork" to sell and then get bored with the first 3 and never sell them I would probably give them away as gifts.  but hey I can stand for a cause and its the only cause I know- that God made me, He loves me, and Jesus loved me so much he died for me, he rose again and now I can live a life better than one I could ever dream of.  so I love me too.  and it makes me want to love you.  So blogspot readers in case you didn't know.  I love you.