the past few days I have been pondering. Thoughts of God and how he gives gifts. when I worked in Windsor, my boss was my preacher's wife, and her dad was a pastor too, Hope would always say her daddy would tell her to pray Matthew 21:22..."If you believe, you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer" I don't know how many times I think of those words and when I just doubt that change will come, or that God will move mountains, I begin to pray this verse and peace comes and we wait for His timing.
The thought hit me, we ask for things we think we deserve, you know they are rightfully ours, when they are not- they are gifts from God. Have you ever applied for a job, after your interview you just knew you had it. I handed my resume to a principal one time and he told me I was "homegrown" and didn't get the job. WHAT? Didn't get the job I was homegrown- you couldn't find a resume more diversified and exciting as mine....look I deserve this job-I have the degree, the license, the background-- give it to me. I don't know about you guys, but sometimes I want to show God my religion resume and say now give me want I want. Look God, I have blessed my meals, gone to church, I have went to the bible study, I have volunteered to help the poor and needy, don't you see its right here under "education" and "volunteer experience" what more can I do? But just as I get whiny, God says he can care less about my resume, he wants me to take a look at his....because he is the one who will do the work, He is the One.
God has moved so much over the past few years. Just when I begin to doubt I take a look over my journals and see where he has moved. I see the prayers that I have believed and he has been faithful to answer, I see my other prayers and burdens answered in heaven that are not yet seen here on earth and give praise that He will move in them too!
oh my i really need to get in the bed. Good night!